I Looked & I Told Myself

I looked at the time over forty minutes ago and I said to myself I'd be sleep by 1am. As I type this into the BB its 12:36.

This goal conflicts with the other goal to spend 30 minutes either reading or writing before turning in.

Like so many other days I've simply run out of time.

Hopefully I won't run out of time to do what really matters become contented, contented with where I sit comfortably, where I stand in times of discomfort, where I lay my head at the end of the day.

I have to however give myself some credit for establishing some me time I watched three DVDs I purchased as a way of chilling out, proper compensation for always being on the grind.

Goonite all!
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Checking In

Hello all, I know it's it's been a minute.

I don't know why after nearly four years of blogging my posts have become so sporadic.

But anyway I decided it was about time for me to check in.

Life these last few weeks has mostly revolved around work and my volunteer duties.

I think I've talked about it before but my apprenticeship ended in February after seven months, when it should have been six (I got an extra work due to the time I took off for volunteer board service).

My supervisors asked me to stay on as a freelancer and work as a fill-in web producer while two of my colleagues were on maternity leave.

Well one of my colleagues delivered a week and a half ago and the other is set to go in for a c-section tomorrow. Also we have a gay couple at work who adopted a baby boy last week. Talk about a baby factory.

It's great though that I'll be filling in for the ladies while they're out. I'll get more hours and have an opportunity to make money to save up to maybe get an apartment, have money for the journo conference later this summer, and possibly pursue graduate school.

Lately the idea of going to law school has been floating around in my head. Before I got the journalism bug I always said I wanted to be a lawyer. Growing up I idolized Supreme Court Justice Thurgood Marshall, in part because like me he's from Baltimore.

I jokingly still tell people that I'm still deciding what I'll be what I grow up. Truthfully, I'm grown up, but I'm also still deciding which path to take.

I Really Should Be

Watching Grey's Anatomy right now, it's in a word, intense.

I really should be sleep right now.

For the second day in a row I'm working 1am-9am on the morning show at the station.

The good thing is I'm off Saturday or I should be.

So in theory I'll close my eyes for 45 minutes when Grey's goes of, get up at 12:00 leave by 12:30 and get to work at 1am.

I'll do my part of the show and then breathe. Hopefully I'll hang some tomorrow night and not think about work which this week has consumed my life a bit :-/.

I used to be a man with a list, a list of priorities. I'm pretty sure there's some other things I really should be doing, but for some reason I'm forgetting them.

"Wassup World?"

"Wassup world?"

Who says that often? I'm pretty sure it's Sway Calloway from MTV though I'm not 100 %. I can't even remember the last time I watched MTV for more than two minutes.

This week has gone by sort of fast.

Last Saturday I had my five year high school reunion. As I told you guys before I cannot believe it's been five years since I graduated from high school. It was a lot of fun seeing people I went to high school with. I'd say of our class of about 140, atleast 40 showed up.

A surprising number of us students are living at home, some have jobs, and others have decided to go back to school. Talking to people pursuing med school, law school, public health school, made me realize I want to go back to school.

Sunday I worked noon to 5 p.m., then got asked to work 1 a.m. the next day.

Monday I worked 1 a.m. to 9 a.m., then went to visit a former co-worker, then came home and napped.

Tuesday I was off so I chilled hard.

Wednesday I went to work. I got irked by my co-workers. Then I went to a screening of the new "Star Trek" movie, which redeemed an otherwise horrid day. Oh and might I say the movie was great, and yes I was a trekkie growing up.

Today I spent time with my two lil cousins, then I went to work which some days I love it and some days I hate it. Then I ran errands gassed up the car, ran to the bank, returned a few calls.

Some days it feels like my life is so uneventful. Then there are days when there's not enough time in the day.

I know now I have to enter each day and say "Wassup World".

My Adventures With Cooking

When I first graduated college and moved back home one of the first things my mother told me was that I needed to learn to cook.

I think maybe she's just a little bit right. I mean eventually I will live on my own and have to cook for myself.

Every now and again as it is now I feel like trying to cook something.

A few weeks ago I tried a pretty sophisticated recipe for one of my favorite dishes chicken salad, yes, chicken salad. I'm not a fan of chicken but I love chicken salad. My mother finds it odd too. And no I haven't relinquished the black card LoL every now and again I will eat me a piece or two of fried chicken.

Oh and here's my version slapped in between two pieces of potato bread:


But since a lot of my friends are foodies I've been experimenting with new foods, things I wouldn't ordinarily eat because it has ingredients I'm not entirely familiar with in them.

Then last night I tried my hand at baking.

I made this:
The recipe is here.

So keep in mind that I may be updating you all with tales of my food adventures every now and again.

High School Again

Tomorrow I have my 5th Year High School Reunion. It's so weird to think it's been five years since I graduated. Lord, some days my mind can't think back that far. Other days it feels like it was just yesterday. I'm excited and nervous at the same time. Excited to see some characters I haven't seen in years. I saw one of my friend at work the other day when he was interviewed for our morning show, he's a pro football prospect. Then on the other hand I'm slightly nervous because I don't quite no why. I think I've done okay for myself. I'm a journalist which a lot of people may have figured from some of my high school activities, working on the campus paper, interning at a local TV station. And with this economy we're all in transition and still trying figure out exactly what we want to be when we grow up. So hopefully that goes well. Maybe I'll have something to report on Sunday :-). I'll have to sober up quick and report in to work LoL.

That's My H.S. Graduation (oh to be that size again ha)

Who Should You Love More?

I've been up since like 3 a.m. and I still don't know why.

Anywho weirdness this morning as I sat listening to Kindred The Family Soul: a husband-wife neo-soul singing duo. My ITunes went from their song "In This Life Together" to an interlude "Husband My Daddy" which includes mom Aja and the couple's daughter both claiming dad Fatin as their own. When one is a husband or wife and also a father or mother there is a natural tug of war between the two loyalties. Though that of course doesn't mean that one can't do both with love, compassion, and a generosity of spirit.

As I reflected on what I know of Kindred: The Family Soul, I knew that family was the center of their world.

Then I flipped through yesterday's USA Today and spent a moment reading about the writer, Ayelet Waldman. Waldman got into a bit of trouble because she once wrote that she loved her husband more than she loved her children. In a way I understand what she meant. She obviously doesn't feel she'd been a mother without her husband, nor could she be a good mother without the love and support of her husband. Some people feel that being validated as a man or woman, husband and wife equips them to be a better parent.

With all of this I do believe in separate loves. I think your love for your husband or wife is one love, and the love for your children is another.

Then she said, "There's a saying that the most important thing a man can do for his children is to love their mother."

That was definite food for thought for me, even though I don't want children.

At a time in which many marriages seem to be disipating thus eroding stability without households it is important for men and women to understand the natural correlation between duties as a husband or wife, lover and friend, and how that in many cases that aides one's ability to be a parent whose fully engaged and fully present for their children.