Indepedence Day

So on this Independence Day I decided to ponder that which we celebrate, that being independence.

I pay close attention in this particular entry to my independence as an individual.

So, last night I had a talk with one of the mentors. I called her to tell her that I'd make it back safely from the stay in Italy. I was a week late, because I couldn't find her cellie number. We talked about all things Christopher, and we know how much I love a captive audience! So we talked for about 35 minutes.

During the convo, she had to take another call.

Her: Hold on Chris.

Me: Ok.

Pause

Her: Ok, I'm back. Chris?

Me: Yes.

Her: That was my son, he's downtown with his little friend (said with a bit of exasperation).

Me: Oh, ok.

Her: Do you have a little friend?

Me: (Completely taken off guard). Ummm no. (Stuttering, sputtering, and all of the above.) I'm too busy to even look........I'm focused on school.......I'm focused on my career.

Yes, I said career. I'm all of 19 years, 11 months, and 27 days old.

As soon as I said that I thought to myself, "Self, we could have a problem."

Could it be I have a one track mind? Could it be I'm so focused on success, I'm prohibiting myself from being completely happy, content, and at peace with myself?

A few months ago a person who always tries to be my friend, but someone I really can't stand, spoke of this problem. She told me point blank, "Chris, I think you're sacrificing your personal life, sacrificing fun, for your so called professional life."

How in the heck can this happen? How can this happen given that so-called professional life really doesn't exist? For goodness sake I'm only about to be a junior in college. I do work, but only part-time. I do have obligations, but most are of my choosing. It could be I'm reading too much into the question of my singleness. I take my being unattached to be a true sign of my independence, and my desire to be happy with where I am, before engaging in helping someone else reach their ultimate level. I know it sounds like a cop out, but it's true.

I've been pondering how to celebrate the big birthday weekend and it was suggested that I find myself a nice young lady to spend the B-Day with, and then it was suggested that I have some type of gathering for the friends. I don't have time to do any planning for either. It's about to be a Red Robin/Hops/TGI Friday's and movies type weekend. I do want to get a cake, and pop the cork on a bottle of wine I brought back with me from Italy. Mmmm yum. I guess time will tell.

Oh and FYI C-Nel does accept cash, gift cards, gifts, phone calls, text messages, e-mails, blog comments, redeemable vouchers of support aka IOU's.

HaHa time for sleep the 6:30am wakeup call comes early.

-CNEL