Today I Totally Lost It

This morning I woke up and felt as if my throat were closing in on itself.

I went to my 8am and I couldn't talk.

I went to my 9am and could barely talk.

I came back to my room and e-mailed the station manager that I couldn't anchor the 12:30 spot.

I worked on the news in case someone else could read it.

I ended up going in and anchoring.

I grabbed lunch, showered, changed clothes and went to work.

I got to work today still feeling as if my throat were going to cave in.

I made it clear to the kids that I couldn't yell.

Then a kid tried me and I told him not to play with me.

His response:
"Are you a member of the KKK?"

I stood up and told him to go inside and tell my supervisor what he said to me. I was so disgusted and upset.

I then followed him in and stood waiting for him to tell on himself.

The big boss just happened to be there, and when she asked me what was wrong. I lost it.

I told her,
"That kid asked me if I were a member of the KKK?"

Then I started balling.

1) I'm sick, 2) I had just spent an emotional weeekend addressing issues of diversity, and 3) That wasn't the first time a kid had made a racially insensitive remark.

I know the exact reason I do the work of diversity is so that ignorance doesn't turn into bigotry.

I just can't believe I cried in front of everyone. I'm going to blame it on being sick!